I am an ADD ADHD individual who found out through in an uncommen way.
I used to work at a pizza parlor at 16 years old, and one night while
closing a good friend asked me if I wanted to try a "line" (i.e. dose)
of crank (later to discover its a stimulant closly resembling
methamphetamine), and at this tender young age exploring the potential
of arguably dangerouse drugs and or situations. Having been reared
in the home of middle upper class Bay Area America I cautiosly
explored only to find I was able to concentrate, do my work betterand
shortly there after my lack luster grades improved substantially. I
even went on to college.
Before finding out about ADD/ADHD I was withdrwn from society and felt
like a drug addict, because that was all I ever heard about the users
of methamphetamines, yet I knew without it I slipped back into a
passive existence allowing life's potential to slip by me.
For a period of time I found smoking cigarrettes helped I guess
because the nicotine acts as a stimulant (maybe all drugs could be
said to be used by the ADD /ADHD population I could make a very strong
case for that because I use alcohole as an "escape" AA would prefer
you state it or I just say to "smooth out the moment so I can cope
with the stress" and that is only if I'm not using Desoxyn or Adderall
or something like that, which the doctor prescribes. Interesting to
note how markedly the use of said substances and the onset of my
environment becomes manageable and the cessetion of products like
alcohol and cigarrettes is garenteed. Not even the thought of alcohol
or tabaco at a friends suggestion can make it happen.
So my question for you is why does the U.S. have a policy for
restricting the use and manufacure of such a helpful and useful tool
in treating ADD / ADHD and is there any conection between the
population at large of people suffering from ADD / ADHD of the
estimated 1 in 9 people and the statistic from the prison officials
which reports that 1 of every 11 people will be incarcerated in their
lifetime.
The reason I ask is that I had to go to court in Contra Costa County
California about a year ago for having been "drunk in public", and
when I told the arresting officer about my medication and showed it to
him he still said he needed to take me in and from there I could
explain it to someone there. I agreed so we went to the jail. When I
got out he drove off without giving me my ride back to my vehicle
which we agreed upon. Once there I was dealt with quite harshly for
asking anything. Two days later and eight boloney sandwhiches I took
a pass on I was starving when my wife picked me up I fell assleep
after the sleepless ordeal. Upon awakening I said all those people in
jail are treated so poorly and they are so much like me. And you'd
have to know me unmedicated, because that is when I'm most often
frustrated with life and truely defenseless as the ADDer's mind has a
different method for storing and retreiving information/memories and
moder day society does not allow are brains to function very
efficiently. I'm guessing that why internet porn is so proficiant,
because the ADDer will not accomplish too much if something on the
sidelines is beckoning him. And why do we (the ADDer) have a
facination with the underworld, (i.e. porn, guns, gambling, drugs, is
it because they are taboo?)
Question (maybe its two or three I'll be sure to pay more money) Can
you direct me to like minded individuals who feel the the justice
system is more or less a way of taking advantage of the diability ADD
/ADHD. Also, the drug dealer, friend who ten years ago said that
athorities know the "goings on" of the players in drug distribution
market and time the raids or arrests of these players at intervals so
as not to disrupt the flow to such a degree that there will not be new
comers to harvest next week, next year, etc. and that the people in
society know this and it is accepteable to them. Can this really be
so? It seems too harsh to be true. Does the ADDers have an atedote
for this situation if it is so?
recalling those memories are not exactly m I looked disoriented
because of ADD medication was new to me and the officer didn't want
know more about ADD /ADHD I found myself in jail for the weekend and
my sweet loving wife didn't know which I had disappeared to. |